Posted in #contemplating, #details, #understanding

Did you know this?!!

A beautiful theory stopped me a lot.

If the order of the alphabet is as follows:
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

THEN
Their numerical order is as follows:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26

If every letter in the language is given weight according to its alphabetical order, for example, the first letter A is a weight equal to 1, and the last letter Z equals 26.

ACCORDINGLY

🔸 hard work 🔸
(H + A + R + D + W + O + R + K) =
8 + 1 + 18 + 4 + 23 + 15 + 18 + 11 = 98%

🔸 Knowledge 🔸
(K + N + O + W + L + E + D + G + E) =
11 + 14 + 15 + 23 + 12 + 5 + 4 + 7 + 5 = 96%

🔸 Love 🔸
(L + O + V + E) =
12 + 15 + 22 + 5 = 54%

🔸 Luck🔸
(L + U + C + K) =
12 + 21 + 3 + 11 = 47%

This means that none of the above will give you the 100% result you want 😊

So is it,,, money ???
(M + O + N + E + Y) =
13 + 15 + 14 + 5 + 25 = 72%
of course not !

Maybe leadership?
(L + E + A + D + E + R + S + H + I + P) =
12 + 5 + 1 + 4 + 5 + 18 + 19 + 8 + 9 + 16 = 97%
Also no !!

💡 Perhaps if we changed our…

“ATTITUDE”

(A + T + T + I + T + U + D + E) =
1 + 20 + 20 + 9 + 20 + 21 + 4 + 5 = 100%

So it is attitude,
If we change our attitude towards life, we will make a real difference in our lives …

Share your thoughts about this theory … do you have another word that will give you the 100% you want?

Posted in #contemplating, #thankful, Friendship, Inner Feelings, Love, sisterhood, Uncategorized

Inevitable Feelings

I love you

I love the way you stand,

when everything is collapsing around you.

I love your optimistic view of life,

no matter what you are going through .

I love the way you hold me tight,

when I am crying hard.

I love it when you say it’s going to be ok,

even if I know you are just saying that to comfort me.

I Love you, when you give me advices,

even when you know I am not going to take them.

I love you, when you are trying to gather all those you love around you,

even if they do not care to do that.

I love you, when you do not lose hope and keep going

I love you, when we quarrel and after a minute everything is fine

I love our memories together even if they are sad

I love your kindness and tenderness in almost everything

I love your determination to do things

I love when you behave like you know everything,

even if it’s annoying all the time 🙂

I love the way I feel that we are one soul divided into two bodies

I love that you are in my life

I love you cause you are a bless 

I love you, because you are YOU

I simply love you sister with every beat in my heart

Posted in #contemplating, Inner Feelings, Love

Words

Words help you express your love

Words help you to ease the pain

A million of them can be replaced by a single touch…yes

Words can be powerful if they came out at the wrong time

or the right one?

Words can change your mood completely

Words can make your heart skip a beat

Your name has this power on me

I hear it or see it and my mood changes for better or for worth

It comes to me in my sweetest moments or in my darkest times

But its effect is like magic, unexplainable and eternal

No matter where I am, what I am doing or whoever I am with

Your name will always be the feast to my days

Posted in #contemplating, #thankful, Inner Feelings, Living, Love, Memories

I’ve been kissed by the sun (2001)

The first time we met, 
I felt that you’re going to change my life. 
Something in your eyes told me;
that together we’re going to be in paradise. 
And we became friends; 
and I found in you the friend I’ve been looking for. 
But unfortunately, 
I can’t hide these feeling inside me anymore: 
Every time I hear your voice 
I want to tell you how much I care 
Every time I look into your eyes 
I want to give you my life to share 
Every time I’m by your side 
I want to reach for your arms 
And every time you touch me 
I feel I’ve been kissed by the sun. 

Posted in #contemplating, #details, Dying, Fear, Friendship, Growing Up, Inner Feelings, Living, Love

Will I LIVE before I DIE??

Meeting new people

Seeing new places

Changing your world

Sharing secrets with your best friend

Falling down

Rising up from the ground

Having a chance to start all over again

Falling in love

Breaking up

Loving without hope

Feeling the first touch from the one you love

Enjoying your first kiss, even if it was not that good

Dressing for your wedding day

Being afraid of the commitment to someone for the rest of your days

Erasing your fears with his embrace

Observing the first glance from your first born

Touching her fingers and wondering how small she is

Combing your girl’s hair

Saying goodbye to her on her first day at school

Being a friend to your kids

Sacrificing your life for them

Watching them grow

Being considered as their only pain

Getting old

Savoring being surrounded by family and friends

Feeling weak

Wrinkling skin

Detesting loneliness

Starring at the ceilings

Closing your eyes

Resting in peace

I wonder if those moments will pass me by

I wonder will I LIVE before I DIE?

Posted in #contemplating, #thankful, Fear, Friendship, Heart Break, Inner Feelings, Love, Memories

Take my Breath Away (2013)

Inhale…Exhale…Inhale…Exhale…

Have you ever thought about the gift of breathing?

I never thought how hard it could be to take our breath and live.

Never appreciate how precious that is, I always thought it was easy.

Until I started to keep track of my breaths when I am with you.

I realized that when we are together, you take my breath away.

Discovering that I was busy worshiping the moment I share with you;

That I sometimes forget to take my breath.

Take me wherever you want, buy me whatever you want, I don’t care,

I just want to be breathless, right there beside you.

The feeling that we were getting close to each other,

Made me taste my breath; it was sweeter than ever,

That I want to breathe again and again

I told myself “Calm down, girl. Breathe deeply because this is too good to be true”

Afraid, I had to admit, I was afraid to confess what I feel inside.

Frightened, that you would repel my emotions.

Confused, shall I be able to breathe again if you are not in my life.

Finally, I decided that I could not take the risk of dying.

I shall never risk, losing you.

While talking about all the girls you know,

I guess you never imagined how that rips me inside out.

But I handle the pain, though it hurts every time I try to breathe,

But it is easier than sucking the life out of me.

I used to console myself that you confide in me and that’s enough.

I am your friend; that gives my breath a break to be easily relieved.

Then she comes to your life and I felt that you are drifting away from me,

You talk about her, how special she is, how she makes you laugh,

How you are ready to be with her forever.

You ask about my opinion? I give it to you honestly as a friend

But when I saw you like that, I decided to back off,

I felt that there is no air in my lungs anymore.

And I thought I would fight for you until my last breath.

But you were never meant for me from the start.

My breath deluded me.

You have to know that I am dying inside,

But I can feel how thrilled you are with her.

And I cannot stop feeling happy for you.

Stupid as I am, I decided that my time has come.

I am offering you, the most precious thing I have.

As I know that when you will go,

I will have no more to take.

I will need no more.

Take my breath away and live my love,

Take my breath away.

Inhale…Exhale… Exhale …Exhale…….

Posted in #contemplating, Heart Break, Inner Feelings, life Lesson, Memories, Uncategorized

Where did your love go? (2003)

Two months have gone since you left me 
I thought time would heal the pain inside me 
But I stand still watching my body collapsing 
I can’t bear your absence; it seems everlasting 
You’ve said that you’ll be there for me 
But you left me as if you don’t need me 
I told myself that I’ve to be stronger 
But when I think of us; I can’t stand it any longer 
I remember you when you told me that you would never leave 
Now I have to stand as a dry leave; 
Left in a windy night to face her fate, 
Over a neglected tree that seems broken and pail. 
Why you did that I do not know. 
But I can’t help but hope that someday you’ll know, 
that the lady you left in the middle of the road; 
was the only one that needed you and was ready to give you her soul. 

Posted in # senses, #contemplating, #thankful, Heart Break, life Lesson, Memories, Uncategorized

Back to your senses

Have you ever thought about your senses and how they are important to you?

All that you can say is that they are very important to our life and body… blah blah blah but I were not talking about their significance to your life or your body, on the contrary, my question was targeting your souls.  Let me assure you that our souls need every sense we have and let me prove it to you.

Our sight captures every beautiful picture that crosses our eyes. It saves the beauty in our mind to recall it when we need a memory for what we felt in that place. The memory does not rely on the place and its beauty, it relies on how it touched our souls, what we felt while we were there.

Hearing a great song that touches the heart, sharing it with your beloved ones, singing it very often that it became carved inside your mind and when you accidentally hear it after a long time all the memories come back alive. The song we heard is not the memory but how it made us feel. I had a special song for each of my boyfriends – those I had all my life, each one reminds me of the one I heard the song with him. 🙂

Tasting a delicious ice-cream that you shared with your best friend after school. Its taste lasts on your tongue like forever. When you eat it one more time you can remember everything like it was yesterday. It’s not the ice-cream taste that holds the memory, it’s who you eat it with and how was your soul then.

The first touch from the one you love. How you felt back then and how your mind and soul captures the feeling like it would slip away any minute and you cherish it for a lifetime. Remembering it makes you feel like you were touched this exact moment and you feel your soul freshened as if your back again with him.

Smelling is my favorite sense… yes smelling. You can’t explain this sense at all. You smell something and it can put you in a bad mood or a good mood. My boyfriend used to wear one of ARMANI perfumes- I don’t remember the name – but whenever I smell it, I remember all the old good days, the bad times and the breakup…. it all comes back to me as if I was reliving all the story all over again. It can change my mood from bad to good and vice versa. When I smell it my brain stops working as if to tell me to stop, to think over, you had lived with that smell the good and the bad times but now it no longer exists in your life – he is gone. His smell is still carved in my mind but I guess he used it to cover his decayed soul.

“Perfume is a disguise. Since the middle ages, we have worn masks of fruit and flowers in order to conceal from ourselves the meaty essence of our humanity.” – TomRobbins, Wild Ducks Flying Backward.

Our senses are the main tools for our brain to keep the memories inside. Make your senses hold the beauty in everything and erase the ugliness from everything. Even if something turned up ugly at the end, be content that it happened from the start and be thankful that you did not have to cope with it until the end of your days.