Posted in #contemplating, #details, Dying, Fear, Friendship, Growing Up, Inner Feelings, Living, Love

Will I LIVE before I DIE??

Meeting new people

Seeing new places

Changing your world

Sharing secrets with your best friend

Falling down

Rising up from the ground

Having a chance to start all over again

Falling in love

Breaking up

Loving without hope

Feeling the first touch from the one you love

Enjoying your first kiss, even if it was not that good

Dressing for your wedding day

Being afraid of the commitment to someone for the rest of your days

Erasing your fears with his embrace

Observing the first glance from your first born

Touching her fingers and wondering how small she is

Combing your girl’s hair

Saying goodbye to her on her first day at school

Being a friend to your kids

Sacrificing your life for them

Watching them grow

Being considered as their only pain

Getting old

Savoring being surrounded by family and friends

Feeling weak

Wrinkling skin

Detesting loneliness

Starring at the ceilings

Closing your eyes

Resting in peace

I wonder if those moments will pass me by

I wonder will I LIVE before I DIE?

Posted in #thankful, Growing Up, Inner Feelings, life Lesson, Marriage

Do not Stop Your Life!!!

Is marriage a choice?
A serious dilemma that most of the people suffer from.

Young girls had grown up on the fact that after they finish their studies, majors or whatever path of education they chose, eventually, the next step would be finding the right man – if they did not think about that during their educational phase. Why? did anyone ask herself before?

Well, since ancient times, girls had to know how to deal with a household, raise kids, have a decent education – in order to teach her children, not for herself, play piano, do some knitting…etc. If we think about that thoroughly, we can find that all of that stuff was not for her pleasure or kind of a hobby. That was for her own good to have the best qualifications to find the right man to settle down – and if you think about it it is not settling down at all 🙂 yeah girls, unfortunately, we are raised to reach that target.

In our present days, we can find that girls started to exclude that target from their own agenda. Why? Girls, in our century, started to question the purpose of this target, does it worth it to waste all their educations and lives to serve a man – no matter how right he was- for the rest of her life.

If you started to think that I am an anti-marriage girl, well, think again. As I said before, girls always in a pursuit for the right man – it is in our blood- but I do not stop my life or wait for him doing nothing at all. I do not fall in depression if he never comes or if other girls get married. Well, my life would go naturally and if the right man crosses my way, I would get married and then I would be convinced that I am doing the right step. But if not, I would not compare my life with others and living feeling sorry for myself.

Yes, it is a choice that we make. We take the decision of marriage or not, it is our own choice, even if we think that it is obligatory, it is not. If you have decided that your career is important now and you should focus on it and disregard all those who come your way… it is your own choice. Do not regret it later, as you had a different target that of another girl who did not think but of the right man who will make her live happily ever after. 😦

Life goes on. It does not stop for anyone or anything. Do not stop your life for any kind of unreached target. Live your life to the full, play piano, read often, knit something, cook… do whatever you please but do it for yourself not to please others or to get qualified for so-called a better life. You do not know what exactly is better for you.

Posted in Growing Up, Jealousy, life Lesson, sisterhood, teenagers

My Sparkling Star

Every girl has a sparkling star in her life, someone that she loves so much but still, she is a competition no matter what she does or how deep is their love. She is that one to me. My eldest sister, my idol, my soul mate, my adviser, nearly my everything but yet she is my sparkling star.

She is an adorable person, the one you see her and fall in love with her right away. She helps everyone and does not hesitate to sacrifice all her time and resources for you if you need her. Moreover, she can dedicate people for your help, if she can. The kind of person who is smart, intelligent and gives you the best and righteous advice. She is a talkative person who mesmerizes you with her words. She is always the center of attention in everything or everywhere and that bothers me like hell.

On the contrary, I am a quiet peaceful person who likes to stay alone most of the time. Do not like talking a lot, but at the same time sociable and sweet. I love everyone and do not hate anyone no matter what they do. I give the people who hurt me a million reasons for their behavior. My friends love me and believe that I am the best friend and sister they can get. And when I say that, the theory is applied to both girls and boys.

During our teen-aging time, she was the beautiful girl who had a great body and a beautiful face, while I was the sweet girl who was a little bit chubby – no perfect body if you know what I mean- and wearing glasses which I used to hate them so much. As a result of this, she had like a million admirer who was charmed by her and I was the one who falls in love with million guys but in imagination only. She had a boyfriend and I had guys who I love secretly and have no guts to admit it to them. Yes… I envied her and felt that I was not enough to those around me. No matter how I felt or what I do; I will always be the best friend and nothing more.

Accordingly, like many teenage girls who feel that they are never enough as they are, I tried to search inside of me for anything that makes me special, something differentiate me. In other words, I started to focus on me and going to college helps with that. I started to know different people – who does not know my sparkling sister, and I started to sparkle in my own environment. Eventually, when my friends knew her she was only the sister of a sociable sparkling character – which is me, so it was natural phenomena. 

Finally, we grew up, and I ignored the envious feeling, as I saw what really inside of me, focused on developing myself without comparing with anyone and believed in who I am even if I do not sparkle that much. I did not try to sparkle in any way but sooner or later I found myself sparkling in my own way.

Search for that sparkling spot inside of you, do not feel insecure when you are around people who are naturally sparkly and you will eventually amazingly glow.