Posted in #contemplating, #details, Dying, Fear, Friendship, Growing Up, Inner Feelings, Living, Love

Will I LIVE before I DIE??

Meeting new people

Seeing new places

Changing your world

Sharing secrets with your best friend

Falling down

Rising up from the ground

Having a chance to start all over again

Falling in love

Breaking up

Loving without hope

Feeling the first touch from the one you love

Enjoying your first kiss, even if it was not that good

Dressing for your wedding day

Being afraid of the commitment to someone for the rest of your days

Erasing your fears with his embrace

Observing the first glance from your first born

Touching her fingers and wondering how small she is

Combing your girl’s hair

Saying goodbye to her on her first day at school

Being a friend to your kids

Sacrificing your life for them

Watching them grow

Being considered as their only pain

Getting old

Savoring being surrounded by family and friends

Feeling weak

Wrinkling skin

Detesting loneliness

Starring at the ceilings

Closing your eyes

Resting in peace

I wonder if those moments will pass me by

I wonder will I LIVE before I DIE?

Posted in #contemplating, #thankful, Fear, Friendship, Heart Break, Inner Feelings, Love, Memories

Take my Breath Away (2013)

Inhale…Exhale…Inhale…Exhale…

Have you ever thought about the gift of breathing?

I never thought how hard it could be to take our breath and live.

Never appreciate how precious that is, I always thought it was easy.

Until I started to keep track of my breaths when I am with you.

I realized that when we are together, you take my breath away.

Discovering that I was busy worshiping the moment I share with you;

That I sometimes forget to take my breath.

Take me wherever you want, buy me whatever you want, I don’t care,

I just want to be breathless, right there beside you.

The feeling that we were getting close to each other,

Made me taste my breath; it was sweeter than ever,

That I want to breathe again and again

I told myself “Calm down, girl. Breathe deeply because this is too good to be true”

Afraid, I had to admit, I was afraid to confess what I feel inside.

Frightened, that you would repel my emotions.

Confused, shall I be able to breathe again if you are not in my life.

Finally, I decided that I could not take the risk of dying.

I shall never risk, losing you.

While talking about all the girls you know,

I guess you never imagined how that rips me inside out.

But I handle the pain, though it hurts every time I try to breathe,

But it is easier than sucking the life out of me.

I used to console myself that you confide in me and that’s enough.

I am your friend; that gives my breath a break to be easily relieved.

Then she comes to your life and I felt that you are drifting away from me,

You talk about her, how special she is, how she makes you laugh,

How you are ready to be with her forever.

You ask about my opinion? I give it to you honestly as a friend

But when I saw you like that, I decided to back off,

I felt that there is no air in my lungs anymore.

And I thought I would fight for you until my last breath.

But you were never meant for me from the start.

My breath deluded me.

You have to know that I am dying inside,

But I can feel how thrilled you are with her.

And I cannot stop feeling happy for you.

Stupid as I am, I decided that my time has come.

I am offering you, the most precious thing I have.

As I know that when you will go,

I will have no more to take.

I will need no more.

Take my breath away and live my love,

Take my breath away.

Inhale…Exhale… Exhale …Exhale…….

Posted in Fear, Heart Break, Inner Feelings, Memories

Afraid to hope (2012)

Entrapped inside of myself, can’t find the way out

Darkness surrounds me and pulls me to the ground

Is there an exit or I am just fouling myself around

Loneliness chains around me are unbreakable

I am trying here but they are unshakable

Darkness all over me even when my eyes are open

Turning me to a silent statue that is cold and frozen

Creeping around to find a salvation

Closing my eyes to reach a destination

I saw a gleam of light and it was outstanding

There I saw the sea, waves are everlasting

I stand there afraid to touch them with my feet

While inside I wanted to feel complete

Afraid to hope, I opened my eyes rapidly

Darkness was there, still wraps me slightly

Choice was all mine, do I dare to break the chain

Would I fight my loneliness and not be in pain

Fumbling for the chain I found it broken

Was not it that hard?  I felt awoken

Touching the walls, trying hard to find the door

When it was found, I heard the music of the shore

I grabbed the handle and open it

There was the sea waiting for me

Is it hope or another misery!!

“May your choices reflect your hopes not your fears.” -Nelson Mandela